Depression sucks; sorry you have to deal with it too. I’m a lifelong sufferer, and have had it particularly bad the last few months, compounded by dysphoria.
I’ve tried the pharmaceutical route. Zoloft made me not care about anything, which to me was even worse than being depressed. Wellbutrin faceplanted me on the sidewalk with a grand mal seizure. Prozac did little other than killing my libido. I know antidepressant drugs are extremely useful, even life-saving, for many people, but I’m looking at alternatives.
Hyperbole and a Half has a great web comic on depression, FWIW.